Monarch butterflies, or “orange butterflies” as I like to call them, remind many people of Christopher. I’m not going to go into detail as to why, because it might not make sense to those who didn’t know him. It’s not that i believe in reincarnation, but I, as well as the rest of Christopher’s family believe they are signs from Christopher. Signs where he is letting us know he is safe and he is watching over us.
The afternoon after Christopher’s death, I was on my way to my cousin’s house, and as I was driving out of my neighborhood, 3 orange butterflies unexpectedly flew in front of my windshield. That has never happened to me before. Butterflies have never flew in front of my car, or even in front of me. At the time, even though I hadn’t had the conversation with my aunt about the significance of the orange butterflies yet, I still had a feeling. A feeling that Christopher was around, and even though I couldn’t see him, those butterflies let me know that he was there with me in that very moment.
Last Thursday, I was up at 5 a.m., and was on the freeway by 6:45 am. Destination? L.A. I was on my way to an audition with two other friends, Nick and Kayla. It was a dance audition. Nerves were kicking in just a bit, but we were mainly focusing on trying to fully wake.
The night before, I prayed about the audition… to God, to Christopher, and my grandpa… just as i would every night…
I was driving, running on three hours of sleep, with heavy eyes, and not really thinking about anything but my next maneuver. About thirty minutes had gone by, and we were slowly moving with traffic. I started to think about the audition at this time and all the things that could go wrong. I tried steering my mind in a different direction, so I thought about rain…I then looked up at the sky to see if i could spot any clouds, but all I saw was blue. All I saw was a cloudless blue sky…. and 10 beautiful orange butterflies flying across just a few feet above my windshield.
Of all places, on the freeway? … That’s how I knew it wasn’t just coincidence. It was such an amazing moment and i didn’t know how to react, but I do know that it is a moment that I will remember forever. Christopher was reassuring me that everything would work out, ad that he would be watching the whole time.
Christopher never had the chance to watch me dance… But now, whenever I am, I know he is sitting in the front row. :)